Hopeful: Getting a Fresh Start

Good Day to all of you..and to myself of course!

It has been almost 3 years since my last Blog dated July 2010..I have been wondering all these years " what I have been missing?" because I felt empty inside...floating...and loosing myself.

When I had fever over a week ago, I found myself useless...

But now, I just found my First Love again..I thought I already lost sight...my personal space..Just Me, and Im never losing "you" again!

I will revive my old self back into circulation.

I'll do my best to be more creative, practical and realistic in my future articles, so we'll both enjoy reading them, right?

See you soon! :-)

What I can do today...

I love Saturdays!!!

Much, much more than Sundays...

Saturdays give me the feel of a two whole day to do what I can't other days of the week.

I remember planning to cut grass on my little garden, arrange the flowers...talk to them!

Yes, I actually talk to them...

I was told when I was a little girl by my late grandmother Eta, that talking to plants would make it healthier, give sprouts faster...that plants actually understand us humans...

Lol! I was sooooo innocent then...But, it's true! Plants do get better color and are healthier...because when we talk...we exhale carbon dioxide right? Which they use for food, and in return, plants expel oxygen which we use to breathe...Indeed, plants and humans live a mutually harmonious relationship... and are beneficial to each other.

I also planned to go to the market, buy some real food...like fresh fish, fruits and veggies

things we haven't bought yet yesterday at the grocery...canned and frozen ones...and be able to ask my hubby to prepare my favorite "Chicken Sisig" served on a hotplate...yumm!

I can play with my two kids...catch up on quality bonding time...

Not to worry on other routine things mothers usually do...moms usually have this impression of not having much time to do all things needed to be done...I can't explain this...

I can watch a movie with my family...

should our budget permit a spur of the moment decision...let me check first, just to make sure!

I can clean the house!

Like really to the truest sense of it...a thorough, every nook and cranny thing "cleaning". I usually breeze up on tidying things at home or else, upon my Inspector Moms' quick visit...i might get a list of reminders I heard of since I was a little kid, LOLoudest!

Well...oh well, I can go think of a thousand things more to do today...or maybe tomorrow,

I just remembered, I needed to sleep first!

Don't Starve...Eat to lose the bulges!

As I was engrossed on writing the previous blog,

I got so inspired and wouldn't want to let go of the keyboard...

I might miss out on the words that flood my mind...

On the emotions pouring endlessly.

My husband Garry...and my daughter Grae, kept coming back and forth...

"Mama, let's eat"...

I said "okay, later"

was called again and said " you go ahead, I'll follow..."

I actually didn't plan to eat tonight,

I'm fighting to win back that figure...

At least the one I had before I got pregnant the second time.

My Oby actually said I got pregnant because I lost weight...

But don't get me wrong, I never want to get pregnant again...

Just want to be healthy and slim...

Then I remembered my cousin Erika, who was a gymnast and a cheerleader now for Oregon...

If you want to lose weight..you need to eat.

MODERATION is the key.

Specially, during breakfast as this is the most important meal of the day...

Fuels up our bodies for the days activities...

Have energy...to burn the fat!

Goodbye to "eat-all-you-cans and unlimited rice" then...

Which has become a food craze or trend as you may say here in the Philippines...

But please...EAt, don't starve!

How Did I Have Real Friends...Near and Far?

Just yesterday, I started to blog again.

Starting from scratch and not being able to write for almost 3 years, left me dumb on all the w's...what, when, where, who. And yes a small little detail, which is most important is H for HOW?

I tried and tried but to no avail...I realized I'm no computer whiz at all. And so I dialed a friend who from the start gave me tips...ending up with a whole script of what to do's. and as if his patience hasn't run out of me yet...ended up doing all that he told me from the start. Gee, thanks Wil!

Mind you, Wil is from another side of Earth.

And so I realized, how did I earn REAL friends who help out, stick-it-out after all these years not to mention the distance, we haven't seen each other for 4 years now give and take.

And more so, I realized he isn't the only one who's dear to me...keeping in touch through all the modern technology has to offer, yahoo mail, face book, friendster, sms, and even long distance cellphone calls which are quite expensive to name a few...both family and long time friends.

How indeed?

I found out, it's just simple! It's just to C - A - R - E.

This being acronym for:

C - ommunicate. Don't stop keeping in touch. It need not be expensive but should be consistent.

A - ssure. Give your friend the assurance that you are and always there, at their beck and call as they are also when you need them.

R - each-out. Don't wait for them to ask help. Offer to give a piece of yourself sincerely.

E- mpathize. There is some kind of bond with long time friends that you just know...when that person needs some pat in the back, or a tap...or simple flying hugs and kisses for a hard day's work. Even if it were just words you read across the screen, the gesture and emotions fly across the distance...and you feel good.

Here' s to Friendship, Cheers!

Day and night...Night and day!

There has usually been a connotation for daytime to be the time to do chores, go to work, to wake up and be alive...

And the connotation for nights, totally for rest and to be in total slumber.

Gone are those days.

The modern society with all it's technology has brought about the concept of 24/7...of modern customer service to be "On-call", and that "Quality time" should be...All The Time.

I indulge in this idea. Not only now, but when I started becoming a mom. Though we do not get paid monetarily for being a 24/7 mom, we get recognition and appreciation during birthdays and annual mother's day celebrations...hugs and kisses and pure love.

Recently, I have also been introduced in the BPO Industry as a part-time Virtual Assistant, where I work on a desk doing all the "field-work"...letting my fingers do the walking..and my mouth the talk...

It is a regular job. My boss does demand a whole lot of quality time...we have sales targets...quotas and reports to do at the end of the day. Much to my surprise, I get the same satisfaction from it as a "Day-job" would.

Gone are the days when I long to rest when Mr Sun goes down,

My world is upside- down...

But...nothing much has changed...only time....

Living la Vida Loca...

Living a crazy...blessed...single life is how I describe my younger sis, Nitch, now working in Doha, Qatar.

Why? You should ask, well, I have seen her adventures right before my very eyes...shaking my head with disbelief to what she usually call as...making known the unknown. E.g. scuba-diving, mountain climbing...quitting your job today and landing a job in Manila three days after...to name a few.

She was here in the Philippines for years and has long been dreaming of how it is to work abroad...to realize a dream.

I follow her adventures on fb, picture after picture, I have felt how truly she has lived a crazy life...a life full of excitement and fun...

and still, young as she is, life has much much more to offer.

So I advised her to enjoy the opportunity that you are in another place...a new destination to unravel...

and not to stop the walk....

She is very blessed with being single...to conquer the world Nitch!...

not to mention the boys?

Life...we should face with anticipation...and without hesitation.

On waiting for the right person to come...

I once read over a social networking site, a dear friend saying " I am waiting for the right girl to come..."

I stopped to ponder on his words...this person is close to me and wanted to give him a sense of assurance that God has specially set the girl of his dreams..for him to find at the right time...

I told him, the right girl will come at a time you least expect it...at a moment you will definitely feel. that was How I knew...I should never let go of my husband, now of ten (10) years, Garry when he came. How I felt that moment until now, hasn't change a bit. We're strong at ten, building this family..with two kids, a girl and a boy at that...living a happy and fulfilled life.

I also thought, sometimes....you wait too long...time is wasted. When it feels good...SEIZE IT! This way...you have more time spent...loving...

So my conclusion to this was, the right girl will come at the time you definitely will feel, and when you now know she is the one...don't waste time dilly-dallying on nonsense talks, and pretending on who you are not. Show her who you really are, and if things feels right...

then...end of story...start of a beautiful relationship...

A new story that I will surely look forward to...shall unfold.

Starting from bits and pieces....

After almost three years being too much pre-occupied with work...not to mention be a "mom" for the second time around...

I found myself speechless...wordless and blank!

I used to have consolation in writing to ease up burdens that I carry and are not able to release...it is either i don't have anybody to share it with...not that I am alone but I don't easily open up on people I don't trust. I used to be too trusting just ending up totally hurt...

I finally had the urge to write again...much to my surprise...I didn't know where to start!

So, I said to myself, why don't I start with how I feel...right now...this very moment that I don't have anything to say...

Much to my surprise...

I have scribbled words and words...just come my way.

Now, I'm relieved...I have an outlet...no need to shout... or sleep...to indulge myself in nothingness...

For I am back...and will promise to have more to share!

Tatta for now...

And welcome back to my site!

30 days after...

I always thought I would run out of things to say...or write about...or maybe run out of time...be very busy....or forget about blogging...and letting people now how I feel, by the way, I am a woman of few words. (just joking hehehe)

Now, after 30 days...I am back! I promise to write an article a day about anything and everything under the sun....my life...my strife...and pleasures.

No need for the new year to come before I do my new years' resolution...

Tatta for now...promise to see you tomorrow!

...of spending quality time

This morning I was confronted with a question about my being able to handle my responsibility with my career and my role as a wife and mother. How do I handle it?

Frankly my dears, I don't! It is true that one can not dove-tail, or do more than two things at the same time. Perhaps, the proper terminology to be used is J-U-G-G-L-E. yup! Since I have 24 hours to spend in a day, most often than not, I juggle work, home and school...

It is not easy.

Imagine jumping from one meeting to another...and then squeeze in bringing my daughter to and from school..plus the assignments and PTA meetings...then coming home from a very hectic day, I have to help out and do some house chores. if you think it may be tiring, exhausting, difficult, physically challenging...Y-O-U are definitely correct.

I admit, there are times I feel like giving up. That there are times I really have to sacrifice something...that I am not S-U-P-E-R M-O-M after all...but these times happen a very seldom that I don't mind them at all. Just think that the word T-I-R-E-D is not in the English dictionary...what's that again? and that it is more of F-U-L-F-I-L-L-I-N-G in the end. Knowing that you are going to wake up inspired, around embraces of people I love...what more can I ask?

Ciao!

How to last a job for more than five months....

I have been working for at least ten years now after I graduated from college 1994.

From then on, I've been into 8 jobs. Twice as Customer associate, twice as Hotel Department Secretary, as a University Professor, as a Food Chain Marketing Manager, as a Guess? Retail Store Manager, and now as Marketing Manager with the premier and only aquasports facility in Mindanao...

Not only that, I got a Master in Business Administration degree ( almost), 2 vocational courses (Professional Caregiver and Call Center Agent), volunteered to the Davao Autism Center as Editor-in-chief for it's school newsletter, worked OJT as a caregiver with a local cooperative hospital, and earned an english proficiency certificate.

Don't stop counting yet...I also got married, had my first and only daughter Grae...built our bamboo house...went scuba-diving for the first time...


I have often been joked upon by former co-employees,by my relatives...and friends, that I am a jack of all trades...master of none. My mother, a retired AVP for Operations for a broadcasting company here in Davao City, Philippines would tell me...to stop...and be at ease, she had a say on it, she retired by the way with a 50 years of Service and Loyalty Awarded to her...but I'd just laugh and say...Iwill...in time.

Ive been into high salaries, good benefits, prestigious company's, challenging and odd jobs...'till now.

It's no joke...all in ten years.

I am about to have my first year anniversary with my present employer...and I feel great and good still. I still feel as excited as I did when I first walked in Wind and Wave Davao. And I realized these are the few things I found worthwile.

First, I enjoy it. I am not restricted in the four corners of an office, I go out and see sunshine...the blue sea...trees...birds...feel the wind...and sand. ( Did I mention,I met Nemo too?)

Second, I am with real people. From the Boat crew to the Board of Directors...all real, they laugh and cry....get mad...pig-out on food, drink beer, get sick...get well...

Third, I have time for myself. To explore, discover...express my views and be heard. To have mistakes...and a chance to correct them...this way I learn.

So now I realize, for me to last for more than five months...I just need to be myself...it's more than just doing the career...what's important is to shine!

Life's Pleasures

Today is the beginning of my new life... a change from the old...transformed into the person I am now...a metamorphosis...like that of a butterfly...beautiful and free...a freedom to express myself!

You might ask why? I used to whine a lot...complain...a surge of an infinite discontent and confusion...of what's, when's, where's, why's, how's...even to a point of asking "God" if he really is there? BUt all these quesitons fall on deaf ears...if not remains an echo or words resounding back to me...unanswered...unsatisfied.

Now is my chance to express...and share my thoughts...to billions of readers whom I know are like me...maybe, learn from them too...about life and its pleasures.

I remember one person who once taught me two lessons:

First lesson: "Never depend your happiness on others".

You were born alone...naked...and crying. Your pain is yours to own, your nakedness...your shame to carry...and your individuality...yours to bear. That nobody else can solve your problems but yourself, you may drown yourself around friends but in the end,when you are in the corners of your room...staring up your bedroom ceiling...you still are all alone.

Second Lesson: " The world is a never ending change, Yes. But never expect people to change their attitude for YOU. Learn to accept if you must...if not, then let go."

We are in constant relationship with others...as a co-worker, as a son or a daughter, as a neighbor, as a relative, as a parent and so on and so forth. Because of these different roles that we have to assume, it couldn't be avoided to be confronted with conflicts...I was advised, do not expect them to change their attitude for you or might just end up dissappointed, learn to accept and love them as they are...This will help you adjust and understand the situation...to be more patient. THAT IF YOU DO NOT EXPECT A LOT, you wont be frustrated. If not, let go...and free yourself from pain.

When we avoid from being hurt...when we don't expect too much and rely only on ourselves...then can we start to say, that life is a pleasurable journey after all.